sometimes...

sometimes i really wonder if i mean anything to you
sometimes i really wonder if we mean anything to you
if it's so, why are you letting me go so easily...


just ramblings... i've very much moved on. but i really hope for your well-being, please take care.

nobody said it was easy.

for all the time i've been wondering if...

it's easy for you to move on.
it's easy for you to wake up without thinking of me.
it's easy for you to go to sleep without thinking of me.
it's easy for you to lead your life without thinking of me.
it's easy for you to have nobody tapping your back.
it's easy for you not to think of us.

because as for me, it was never, it has never been any easier.

i once told myself not to fall into any more fuckwittage. i once made a wish to my eyelashes that we will work out. i once thought that where've you been all the while.

it came fast, like how it left us.

nobody said it was easy.

revived.

i read through some of my old posts, it's been almost a year eh? i dunno if this current one will even last, but i will try.

havent been sleeping well recently, maybe this long break from camp kind of interrupts my inner clock already, maybe my insomnia is hacking me back, maybe im in need of a change in my sleeping position, maybe there's too many things in mind that constantly run about and never seems to exhaust myself out, maybe maybe i should just not sleep at all.

on a heavier note, jeanette will be flying off this sunday, and i told myself i so need to send her off, to think that the last time we were in the airport together - our last BKK trip two years back. the thing, as you mentioned, between us ridicules our friendship so much. to make it worse, i went past upp thomson and popped by dubs last week which definitely (and unavoidably) stirred up the past. don't we just reminisce in fond memories easily? but not as easy when things aren't the same anymore. it's been so over at times that we shouldn't weigh out the fault, but im still sorry if it's ever partially mine. i was practically losing everything, everywhere and everyone. was attempting very hard to hold on to my bearings. trust me, everything's getting better every now and then. i guess it's over that dull period of time, we start afresh by ourselves and ponder alot of stuff.
all in all, remember how we always say this, there's always this part of me that is you, that i hold it so close to my heart. it's still there, fyi.
i wish you all the best in Australia, especially for your well-being and studies. study hard and play harder (cliche it may sound and i know you'll do that too)

love from dubs
ethan.

well spent well spent.

WHOOO

it's been a great holiday for me, so far.
met few new people, and they are nice.
met up with old friends, and they are fun and nice too.

if only my life will resume in this manner. if only this will never end. if only my life will never move on. if only...

I WANNA GO PICNIC AGAIN!

oh HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! no doubt how many foreigners talked bad about you or made bad critics about you, i will always clarify with them and be on your side. no doubt how sometimes you have made our life diffcult, we know that you meant well. no doubt most other people don't know where are you, we know you are always in our hearts. but why can't you just accept the minority? the minority is still part of you and still love you as much as the majority. why can everything be equalled when you preach about equality and fairness?

happy national day...
ethan.

stop abusing bus driver campaign.

when did it become okay for one to loudspeaker their player in our local PUBLIC transport?

Twas this secondary school malay girl beside me, in the bus, started blasting her mp3. well, initially i reckon it was her cell's ringtone, and gave her five secs of my patience for her to pick it up. then so i was wrong, it was her player which she conveniently skipped to her favourite track(read: sean kingston - beautiful girls). it was a nice song. but it wasn't nice of you to loudspeaker your player in an environment where everyone shares? spare a thought for the rest.

when did it become all right for one to invade other's rights and privacy, without any form of permission? mental seizures.

anyhow anyhow, i will be clearing my leaves from 3rd aug to the 9t. don't ask me why. (reference: the previous line.) holler me out and i will say yes :)) for real... for sure.

rambling...
ethanpqk

ella...

ha, i guess almost more than half of the universe have heard of Rihanna's umbrella and are loving the song so much, but im still waiting for the acoustic version, as i was trying to sing it that other night. guess it'd really sound good.

in the meanwhile, found someone who did an acoustic version of it. he's really good :)

VIVA LA VIVA

VIVA LA VIVA, all you homies of mine. (okay, forget that sentence, just wanna have an impactful start.)

wow, i've been out like since last friday till now. this is like the longest belated post birthday celebration ever, boy. so much for being a 21 grown-up. the legal three. :)

Amazing how i spent all, a total weekend of indulgence. Thanks for the PSP, the perfume, the belt, the brow liner, the tee and the superb dinner and drinks. SWEEEEEEET.

ok here now, im just gonna upload this song by Elliot Yamin, i don't know if you guys know him but he was one of the america's idol contestants, and so can he sing!
check this hot stuff.

peace out V
ethandory*