fuck...

sigh, i thought i could handle things beautifully, but apparantly not, at least not for this time round. im writing this because im feeling better, to be a better self. sometimes, things dont juggle as well as you thought u could. and when everything just screwed up, nothing you can really turn in to, but yourself. you got yourself into such shits, you get out of it by yourself. maybe thats what im good at, suppressing things in myself. with all the mental draining, you will make yourself think carefully and tediously: the purpose in life. nothing is gonna bring you down yet, unless you'd really wanna give up. maybe another forte you'll see, im glad to go through this matter all by myself, not the first time tho. experience counts tho. friends are still there and i love them so... but for such matter, like what i said, nobody can handle it better than yourself. :)